...

2011-10-28T00:08:00.002+08:00

it has been long since i came here. half a year. many things have gone through my mind.
i dont feel like myself anymore. i feel like there is a mask over my face. i m tired.
i m frustrated. i cant handle this situation. i dont know how to react. what should i do?

i m trying my best already. isnt that enough. so tired,so so tired. where are you, the one i trusted, the one i loved. what have i gone through kept playing through my mind. God says there is always care about you. my mom cared, who else bothered.

fuck you dad, where are when i needed you. you only know how to talk.

when can i eat at the round table with grandfather,grandmother? i m trying to find peace of mind. where can i have?

i dont believe it destiny, but its pushing me so hard that i can hardly breath.
so hard to breath. so hard to live. so hard to love.

2011-03-16T00:28:00.001+08:00

why ask me how?
not she how or he how?
why i kena sacrificed..tmd..forget it. i have no character,no looks,no money.
what can i deserve? hahas.

2011-03-14T20:33:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i just feel so helpless at life...
i try to change it so much, yet nothing is changing..
your regards.

why is it always me?

2010-11-25T21:55:00.001+08:00

hurt me,hurt me,hurt me somemore.
i thought it has turned numb yet it didnt.
just gonna put a smile in front of everyone else.
i dont have anyone in my life.

2010-11-22T23:47:00.001+08:00

JIAHE,WHY DO CARE SO MUCH HOW PEOPLE LOOK AT YOU?

2010-11-18T22:35:00.004+08:00

whats wrong?

what i want in my life?

no more cigarettes.

where do i belong?
i cant find any. abandoned. always.

study?
cant do shit.

someone who will love me back?
none.

someone that i can talk anything and willing to trust me with anything.
not happening in my life.

what is happening in my life=pointless.

whats the difference of anything that is happening to me?

arrogant people gets the favours.

why am i always wrong?
even when i do the right thing, have the right facts.
why do i get nothing in return for EVERYTHING i do in my life.
Questions just keep goin through my head.

maybe cigarettes can relax me a bit,but not long time.
solution?

the problems cant be always lies on me. so why do i get all the shits.

yea, life is unfair,but this is being too unfair.

i cant live up to life.

whats the reason behind every life?
God gives a reason for everyone to be born.
for me to be kicked around like balls?

i just wants to have a place i belong, someone i love and someone who loves me back.

2010-11-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

PRIORITY LIST.
-GET MY PAY.ASAP
-DO TUT EVERYDAY
-FYP stuff
-Option selection
-Nebo camp
-others.

2010-09-25T21:58:00.003+08:00

I do not have any joy in my life right now.
All those smiles are just so fake to cover up my sadness.
How long is this gonna stay?
and now i m on my own,wings broken.
i cant feel myself,living in agony.
hatred towards myself.
love yourself,before others love u,this is bullshit.
in the world,
depend on no one but yourself.
cigerettes,alcohol,swimming. my best friends.

2010-08-28T01:01:00.000+08:00

fml. i feel like a failure. no one cares anyway.

2010-06-19T15:35:00.000+08:00

hope one day you will see.

2010-06-09T21:17:00.002+08:00

我很想你! :(

Tu me manques (:

2010-06-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

how i wish you are by my side right now. :")

2010-05-29T09:32:00.001+08:00

i still miss you.

2010-05-24T13:04:00.001+08:00

i miss you :(

2010-05-21T01:20:00.000+08:00

recently, some people just wanna act yi ge ( ). bth. but i dont care!

2010-05-14T23:01:00.000+08:00

it still hurts so much.

2010-05-10T19:15:00.002+08:00

many things has been going through my mind recently.
i feel fucking tired and disappointed and broken and hurt and lost and...
life isnt simple, i know.
But it seems too hard to handle this time.
maybe the only solution for this time is escape.
just let go of everything that i had been holding on so tightly to.

Maybe i m crazy or wat, its just dont feel right anymore.
we used to be so carefree.
we used to be so free.
we used to have club as our second home.

now, i go down club, who do i see?
year 1, the freshmen thats we brought in.
year 3, they aint gonna give a fuck abt our year anymore.
year 2, always i only see colin and soonbeng,

now, wan go spim de go spim, wan mia de just mia,
who give a fuck about club anymore?
MAYBE I DONT EVEN HAVE THE RIGHT TO BE DISAPPOINTED.
who am i?
a nobody?
fuck man, Jiahe, why are u so fucking useless, why cant u do any shit.
why are u so fucking simple, why do u talk at the wrong time, why are u so stupid, why do u let people make fun of u and swallow it down, why do u feel so disappoint?

why the fuck must the whole year 2 go spim tgt? fucking lame. even if 2 or 3 stayed in club i wont so fuckin disappointed. all i see in club is the year 3s who are laughin at us and year 1 with no aim.

i feel like escaping from this place, but i began to think, then what separates me from those who had already m-i-a. shit, i dont know what to do. i m fuckin lost again.

i dont even want to mention the girl problem at all, i cant see anything. mayb i m giving up again? shit. JIAHE WHY ARE SO FUCKIN WEAK.

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You

FUCK U JIAHE WHY ARE SO FUCKIN WEAK?!

2010-01-29T09:01:00.002+08:00

suffered another big drawback again.
Does a true friend or a real friend exist?
who wont even betrayed you even once?
Do even they even care?
If you care, am i even your friend? if....
Every time i tried to stand up back again, i realize the world around me.
Life is being tough.
I just cant handle.
its not that i want to emo , its just i live in a world of false hopes.
I tried blame everything on myself.
finding problems with myself.
but i cant handle life.
live fast, die young.

2009-11-24T21:53:00.000+08:00

hahs,just kill me, just let me get knocked to death by some car.

2009-09-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

I AM changing without realising.
i became more dull,and i hate that.
How come so many things came,and i cant be bothered with a single one?
i wan to be the old me, laughing truely from my heart everyday.
not now,feelin lost and shagged everyday.

did someone put a curse on me?
XIA JIANG TOU. ON ME?

2009-07-24T18:58:00.002+08:00

Sometime,being alone is the best solution.
faith walks on broken glass.
How i wish, i would be the old me.
so tired, so confused, so helpless.
all only kept alone.
trying to solve all, all to solve none.
decisions were made,wonder it works?
time need.
but how long.
lips of an angel.
i guess i havent really moved on.

2009-07-23T21:35:00.002+08:00

I am confused.
Why is this happening to me?
Am i thinking too much?
i feel so hard to breathe.
Every minute thinking about two questions,never be able to find the answer.
Is there something something wrong with my character?
Why am i a single child?
Who can i trust?
its not i'm feeling insignificant,
tears flows. for who?
myself?
i don't know.
haha,whats the purpose of me living anyway.
God says there is a purpose fo people to live.
I don't find any.
Typically, i suck at everything.
I find no purpose.
Secondary friends, you all are the only reason i find living for.

Jiaxin, melvin, ryan, daryl, cheryl.

and the rest.

21 guns

Her,
never fell so heavy before.
i don't what is she thinking.
wondering.
Have been a part of my life without realising.

whats wrong with me.
writing here.
It has been left empty for so long,
no one is gonna care or come anyway.
exam is coming,thats not the problem.
i cant focus.
no matter what i am doing.
what am i aiming for?
Whats the purpose of my life anyway?
Just living day by day?

why i waits for everyone,no one waits for me?
why,why,why.
questions just kept me thinking.

(21 guns, Green days)

Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take you breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weight out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?
Does someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and i

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and i

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire?
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky
You and i

THE END

2009-02-25T12:25:00.006+08:00

Poly gonna start le.
Hope i can mix well there.
So many things to settle.
Frustrated.
Army thing, pre-enrolment, tuition grant.
Everything like so mafan.
Sighs.
Adult now liao lah...

2009-02-22T18:24:00.000+08:00

Be a better man.

2009-01-20T19:55:00.000+08:00

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

2008-12-10T21:49:00.002+08:00

I DON'T WANT TO WASTE MY HOLIDAY.:X
i cant find the job that suits me.
Finally,find the job with not bad pay,the manager nvr call me after interview. T.T
SERIOUSLY,this is a very fucked up system.
when they says we will contact u in a few days, they rarely does it.
They will just leave u with an EMPTY hope, and wasting away your time waiting for them to call.
Seriously,its fucked up.
But,this is how the world turns,no choice,accept it.

Christmas is coming.
Serious,i m afraid of this year's Christmas.
Because after that we will all go back to school to take our result slip.
I didnt work hard,no choice,had to accept it.

my own life,i had to take control of it by myself.
respect,earns with ability.
with greater power,cames with bigger responsibility.
I dont like to be serious,but i will sometimes.

one more thing!
when my face got no emotion, i m not EMO-ING!.
[with no emotion,does not means EMO-ING!]
:B

2008-11-18T21:00:00.002+08:00

Vest makes people look like waiter(thats what my mom said :P)
Got almost everything ready, except need to find an awesome tie and shoes.
walk until sian.
I want to work sia!!
anyone got info??tell me !!!

2008-11-14T21:10:00.003+08:00

sigh,i cant find a job.anyone want offer?:D
tired sia.these days always arrive home at midnights.
Somemore,my biology alarm goes off at 8am.
so everyday i cant sleep past 8 am :X
prom clothes are also a bother.sigh.
money! i need u!
Vest or blazer?
Pants or special jeans?
Still got shoes,mask,and also hair.
i need clothes that is nice but not only for prom but also can wear go out.sigh.
just wish the vest i saw wont be out of stock by monday:D

2008-11-10T21:11:00.003+08:00

2 days to endin of O-LEVEL!
YEAH.

2 years really passed fast.
Learnt a lot these two year,
made great friendships.
awesome 2 years.
Thanks to my friends who went through up and down with me,
Thanks to my friends for those comforting words that you said when i m down.
Thanks to you all, that my life can be fully pieced together and full of colour.
Thanks to you all, when i keep askin question, you all spent time solve it for me.
Now,although graduation is over about one month.
I wish the friendships last long,
even when we went our seperate ways.

seriously regretted that i didnt work hard through this 2 years.
no choice now, let fate bring me to the place i m going.sigh.
I m going to work hard next year![THIS IS TRUE!]
BUT i m really gonna enjoy myself this holiday! :D

O-LEVEL IS GOING TO BE OVER!!!!!!:D:D:D

2008-07-13T18:45:00.001+08:00

O-level.
T.T

2008-07-09T22:29:00.003+08:00

super stupid,ultra big,imba painful ulcers.
2combined together at the lip.
another at the other side of my cheek.
Cheryl says my cheek swollen =.="
lol.
so pain.
cant talk much,drink, eat oso very painful T.T

2008-07-08T18:42:00.002+08:00

I heard next week.
Our class is going to have both E-MATHS and A-maths,
ON THe SAME BLOODY DAY.
there is only 14 weeks to o-level.
OMG.

2008-07-06T12:28:00.001+08:00

YES!
After reformatting my comp.
IT was back to normal.
Had a bad fall yesterday.
My neck still totally hurts.
i pray that that i wont be paralysed

2008-06-23T20:15:00.002+08:00

School started.
16 WEEks to O-level!
Changed sitting arrangement.
Forgot to bring the report book.
First one to be scolded my miss tan/ =.='
time is flying.
holiday is over.
Hell is coming.

2008-06-11T22:23:00.002+08:00

Quite happy actually.
i DID my HOMEWORKS!
-3 compre
-3 summary.
-3 e maths worksheet.
-english vocab tests(took me near 2 hrs)
-1 amaths paper.
-1 chemistry worksheet.
-2 chapter physics workbook.
Totally HAPPY man.
this is the result of muggin straight two days instead of playing :B

2008-06-09T18:23:00.000+08:00

So long since i last post.
Too busy and tired to post.
Class outing is kinda fun.
19 weeks to o-level.
OMG>

2008-05-19T11:29:00.002+08:00

Holiday is coming in about..
two week time.
slacked this weekend.
Finally got my darn shoes and pants.
this holiday wont be a break.
must push through this 90+ days with full force.
"God,if u are there.given them the eyes that see through the rocks."
this earthquake is so devastating...

2008-05-13T21:28:00.002+08:00

Exam is over.
Results have came back.
Aint pleased with the result.
Especially of all the stupid, damn it mcq and careless mistake.
one thing i m glad.
i have improved in my maths.If not for the careless mistaken i could have pass.
sigh.
i really needs a timetable,
to plan and organise my study.
there isnt much time left.

2008-05-07T19:47:00.002+08:00

Fuck off.bitch.seriously.
There is a limit i can go.
this is the second time.
third time.i will make sure i will shout at you.

Its the exam period.
not only the papers.
friends,
parents,
and other things are giving me problems.

I am smiling at school does not mean i m happy.
Its just that i does not want to sulk all day.
The pressure i have been taking is overwhelming me.
Feeling that i would explode anytime,
its like a ticking time bomb.

Bang.DEAd.
Does it all end?

Do i have enough time?
its like 15 more weeks?
can i get through it?

To the umbrellas,
sec 3 had been one of the best year i had secondary school,
made great friends, holds unforgettable memories.
But how long more will it last for me?

i m so tired.
Guess i need a long sleep.

Everything is unexpected.
life is filled surprises and miracles.
Will a miracle falls on me?

I hate to write all these on the blog.
but it helps, at least a little, to release my frustration.

Its A-maths and physics tmr.
I should be studying...

2008-04-29T21:29:00.002+08:00

i m sick, AGAIN.sian
the doctor say i m still in battle with the virus that haunted me one month ago.
muscle ache.back pain.headache.
feel like i m going to die.
although i have mc.
i still need to go back school tmr to get something done.
and mid-year is so near.
pissed.the headache is torturing me day and night.
i feel so terrible.

2008-04-28T21:40:00.000+08:00

got this terrible headache these past few days.
its like a torture.
two paper down.
so many more to go.
T.T

2008-04-24T20:13:00.000+08:00

Tmr is the starting of mid-year liao..
WORK hard,everyone :D

2008-04-22T22:29:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday, ryan.
super sweet 16

2008-04-11T22:30:00.003+08:00

This morning is like horrible,
waked up late,then my mom was like using the toilet and i cant go in and bathe.
somemore,must wait like ten minutes before i can answer the nature's call.
after i wash up like no time liddat liao.
put a bit of wax,then rush down liao.
suddenly,dingdong,i remember,i forgot to bring umbrella and its raining like hell like that.
with the umbrella,i walked down to the shelter.i thought i m safe.
"bong",i felt sudden wetness at the side of my shoes,
i stepped on an effing pool of water!?!?
lucky only touch a bit then i siam ar.
when i m about to board the bus.
this frigging girl walk slowly from the shelter to the door of the bus.
everyone diao her.
cuz she is opening her umbrella,and she took her own sweet time closing the umbrella.
everyone is like diaoing her in the pouring rain.
stupid girl hai dao i nearly freeze in the bus.
afternoon took 335 home,then saw this guy with 'fuhua sec' printed on his jersey.
i was like lol,
then he turns back,his face 20+ liao.
maybe from the first batch.
nothin much happened at school..

and i sprained my ankle,i cant run or jump.[i can fly]
but it might be a good thing cuz it prevents me from keep playing basketball :D

2008-04-06T22:14:00.002+08:00

So pissed at the stupid americans.
my cousin,quite a close one, born in USA.[now still living there]
he is clever and study well.
Tio kena bully.
then he fight with him[my cousin taekwando black belt]
the bully tio knock out,suffer brain damage.[tio nao zhen dang]
then his stupid school racial discrimination,go blame my cousin.[because he is an asian?!WTF]
He is an ABC [american-born-chinese] damn it!
my cousin oso damn charming,
then a lot girls like him.
then another school bully green eyes [then ltr turn red eyes.]
keeping picking on my cousin, because the girl he likes, likes my cousin.
[my cousin doesnt even like that girl]
the girl also jialat[kanasai]
she likes my cousin then used the school bully likes her
[she go use the bully to scare off the other girls who like my cousin]
{the girl and bully all kanasai}
the bully discovered she tio used by the girl.
he went to find my cousin and picked a fight.[stupid ass,like he can win a black belt like that.]
then he tio threw down the stairs by my cousin[my cousin not very big size one]
the bully head bleed then go find teacher or principal [ i cant really rmb]
stupid crybaby right,picked on a fight,lost then go find teacher.
the girl also so jialat..
sighs..
Is america really so great,
although its a powerful nation.
but think again.
they say they practise individual freedom.
is this the freedom that they give?
bullshit.
world is unfair.
bear with it.

2008-03-26T23:43:00.002+08:00

Look back into the past to change the future.
SUper duper busy this few days.
almost for 7days all 1am sleep.
so damn tired.
no time to blog.
guess will back to bloggin when everthing is organised and settled.

2008-03-08T21:00:00.003+08:00

Sick.[doctor says i got risk of getting lung infection}
OmG...
he give me like 8 types of medicine..
eat until i want faint liao.
sian.holiday sick.so unlucky.

2008-03-02T22:18:00.002+08:00

no link with last post.
Got to know that matthew was injured before tuition today.
wasnt at the basketball,cuz sick.
anyway,
wishes matthew teeth will heal soon!

2008-03-02T21:51:00.000+08:00

OneRepublic Stop & Stare Lyrics

2008-02-24T22:02:00.002+08:00

Damn.
So much things to do.
i wished that i had more time.
like 72 hours a day?
can spend at least 24 hours sleep.
then 25 hours revise for common test{of course got break in between}
then 23 hours of free time?
...
stress.
Half dead.
...
i need more sleep.
Crap.
Damn.

2008-02-21T22:09:00.003+08:00

COMMON TEST HAS STARTED.
and i waked up in the middle of last night, with today's essay question popped into my mind..
1 down.
7 more to go.
well,need to work harder.

2008-02-06T22:21:00.001+08:00

You Have Fantastic Karma

You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person.
And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already.
But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway.
You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that!

How's" Your Karma?

2008-01-30T22:32:00.000+08:00

BEing nice,always get bullied.
Being nice,always get cheated.
Being nice,and u didnt help enough.people still not happy.
Being nice,get emotionally hurt.
being nice,dont even wan to argue or quarell.
being nice,i rather punch the tree bark,until my knuckles bleed then hurting my friend.
being nice,people toy with your feeling.
being nice,people will find things to say what u are not nice.
being nice,no happy ending.
then why being nice?
ha.

2008-01-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday! Jiaxin!
and my lip still hurt lah.
FAG.

2008-01-22T21:56:00.000+08:00

LAst week tio muay thai by yiherny.elbow hit my lip,while playing basketball..
Today.lip again slammed by ryan's arm while play basketball..
The wound REOPEN! so lip bleed twice liao.
ans johnny says i have a mountain at the side of my lip.=.=
Super sian. caught by mr lee when ryan and i was playing basketball instead of going trainin.
Tmr need to see mr teo.sian.duno wat he want to say.
ARGH.lip super pain!

2008-01-15T22:09:00.000+08:00

Been to the sec 4 study camp for 2 days.
i think i had benefited a lot from these 2 days.
it even help to restore my belief.
there is one saying that if a man believe what he can do,he will be successful.
i know its easy to say what to do.
but it will be hard to reach my goals.
I will try my best..:D

2008-01-11T18:03:00.000+08:00

I just so HATE it when my day becomes screwed.
today isnt really a bad day for me.
but ystd..i want to kill myself.
stupid exam.stupid school.stupid me..
and everything.
came crashing on me.
its just wasnt what i expected.
i just wants to have a normal life.
thats all.
i WILL SURVIVE!
i treasures u.but i dont think u treasures me.
Why would i choose to fall when i know i will be tripped by u.
even all the gods are crazy.even all the stars are blind.i will show you my love if you show me yours.

2008-01-08T21:01:00.000+08:00

Just got through a damn SCREWED Day...
Can someone give me some SCREWS?and maybe a screwdriver.?

2008-01-05T18:17:00.000+08:00

Jiahe is pulling up his socks!!!
First time finish ALL the homework by himself during the weekend!
I feel GOOD!! yay^^
This year must chiong all the way!!
Everyone in sec4 also must Jiayou! :D

2008-01-02T20:02:00.000+08:00

I shall update..
Even though i m fighting through my sleepness :X
First day of school..
=.=
Wake up late then nearly late for school.
then come to school cant find the class.
find class liao..ltr at parade square..
ms tan go catch my hair.
say wat too spike ask mr goh flatten for u. u want?
then i say not too high wat?
then she say two storey high only.
then i told her desmond hair then basement ar?
WAHAHA! then tio send off to toilet.. =.=

So sleepy during class today lah!
cant concentrate.
somemore ms chong keep talking about o-level.
making like its o-level the day after tomorrow..
stress seh @_@
next next week,o-level chinese result come out! T.T
I shall go sleep.. :D

2007-12-30T23:40:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday To HUIWEN!!! :D

And i wasted a day again!=XXXX

2007-12-29T19:36:00.000+08:00

SHit Hit my tailbone at library..It still hurts until now..
We didnt study at all..
ONly they laugh until their stomach pain..

2007-12-29T13:31:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UlBqtBfcB4M&feature=bz303

Wow! NBA top 10 plays 26th dec.

2007-12-27T23:10:00.000+08:00

An INVITATION TO VISIT THE SAF BASIC MILITARY TRAINING CENTRE!!
SHIOK!!!!
Prepare for National service..(:
Should i go?? people??!!
Me going to national service..Unimaginable..
Wahaha.

2007-12-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

Fuck!
Really upset about things going on.
really stressed.
wtf lah! cant she just shut her god_damned fucking mouth up?
Everything i did is wrong lah!
nothing is right isit?
If i really have the money,i would buy condo for my mom.i would live at the house i m living in right now.
I still love her,but i just cant stand she nagging at me all days.
Beside this.
so many things is flowing through my mind.
Felt like my head is going to explode.
Just DAMN THE FCUKIN SATAN!

2007-12-25T17:02:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!!
and holiday is going to come an end le!
hope everyone enjoy it.
because next year is the "YEAR"!

2007-12-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

Holiday is going so FAST!
Without realising its going to end soon..
And next year is the STRESS year!!

Finally,
after two months of searching,
i found my bleach-yellow skinnies! YAYSS!

Bought two things today, Shirt at topman,Skinnies at penisula.
Burn holes in my pocket.=X lol..
walked until my legs hurts oso..
Boths are bleach-Yellow! hooray..

Two more weeks to The end of Holidays..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

2007-12-16T18:15:00.001+08:00

Busy week..
VERy tired..
nothing more to say..

2007-12-11T20:25:00.000+08:00

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So, mesmerizing, so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am

{Chorus}
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear
I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

{Chorus}
So turn
up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment fall forever

Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip awaySo let me slip away

{Chorus}

Like hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
====================================
He wants this one person so bad but he cant have her. and now this girl is engaged and he lost her and he wants to slip away from being friends with her..

2007-12-11T20:05:00.001+08:00

Tired =XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
AFTER WALKING AIMLESSLY AT VIVO WITH RYAN AFTER TRAINING..LOL

2007-12-10T20:27:00.000+08:00

I wish i can have THE GREAT ESCAPE..
sighs..tired..
Paper bags and plastic hearts
All are belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night
Let's get drunk and ride around
And make peace with an empty town
We can make it right
Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our livesI
t's so good to be by your side
But we'll cry
We won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just cause we're young
And we'll feel so alive
Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight
All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight
Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burnLet it die
Cause we are finally free tonight/..

AND SINGAPORE TOTALLY OWNED MALAYSIA TODAY AT TABLE TENNIS WOmENS SINGLES,AT FINALS...THE MATCH ENDED IN ONLI 20 MINUTES..WAHAHA

2007-12-07T20:56:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA,i went to library to study,i m pulling up my socks..lol..
STudy until so tired want sleep liao..
llike a bit nothing to post..
so Yanjie asked me to post how nice she is..
OK she is A VERY VERY nice girl,not very tall oso not very short,
Likes to smiles a lot, also likes to slacks a lot, also watch korean drama a lot,
Plays table tennis and rAn like lightning when she is in primary school..
er,but it's quite dangerous to post this cos i may nt stop typing or if i managed to, people might die of nodding heads in agreement...
LOL LOL LOL..
BYE-bbye

2007-12-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

Arghsss..so tired..
Have been going out everyday for like two weeks..
ARHHH..homework all left undone!!
Should be going with yi herny to je lib to study one today,
instead..went to play basketball with ryan,the weather was like damn nice lah..
goin to rain but nvr rain,so no SUN!!GREAT!! =D
after that then went to play pool again..sian wasted more money..
I shall go library with yi herny to REALLY study, and finish most of the homeworks..
YAYS..so people..wish me luck..
So tired go slp le..Zzz

2007-12-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

STUPID RAIN
dont mean the korean star..
its the singapore todays WEATHER!..
went out in the morning,its not raining but cloudy so i did not bring an umbrella..
And in the afternoon,HEAVEN STARTS TO CRY!!!
i was About soaking wet when i get home..
later melvin asked me to go with him to jurong point to change his helicopter
BECAUSE it spins out of control just tio laser once!!LOL..so he got a new one..
The bus interchange in so "DARK" that he say.. "XXXXXXX"
lol..
RAinin the whole day sian..
tmr still got training..and afternoon go study with Yi herny..

2007-11-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

Boring day..
went to Library with Yiherny to study..
in the end went to lan.. WTF!! LOL
Anyone WAn or interested in going Ngee Ann polytechnic astronomy camp?
Tell me FAST!! if u wan go..
Base on Last year experience..
its like damn fun..
90% of the time playing..10% of time LOOKING AT THE STARS..Nice way to spent time..
so anyone want to go tell me immediately..cuz the closin date is comin near..=X

2007-11-29T21:03:00.000+08:00

Woah..Tiring DAY..
WEnt to TRAinin in the moring,then half-way WEnt out to buy Food..Durin REcess..LOL XD
Then training end le..Went to play basketball with ryan..
Walao eh.. woahpiang eh..The sun is Like %&*#ING SCorchin,RED AND BRIGHT!!.
Somemore his Ball CAlled 'Wilson" cuz the brand is wilson..
So Ryan called his ball..Wilson..
Somemore the basketball..SWollen on one side..WOAHPIANG EH!!
play a while then tired le..
Then talk CRAPS..
then Went back play Somemore..WE have got a new audience..The Cleaner grandpa..
Watchin our every moves..LOL
then sian diao..
Went to play pool..walao..spent 7 dollars plus..and played like shit today..xintong ar..=XX
So Tired..goin to slp now le..Bye (^3^)

2007-11-27T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hi....LOL....
Moring went to table tennis training,play until so damn tired sia..
then went tuition..after that went to Imm,FoX..
LOoking for that shirt i want..
in the end, sold out!!=XX
Had to go all the way to marina square to get it..Sian..
lol..
You cant make someone love you..
All you can do is be someone lovely..the rest is up to the person to realise your worth.. =)

2007-11-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

Doin maths all days..
must improve sia..
must work hard sia..
now still doin maths sia..
everyone shall oso work hard too!!
cuz next year is O-level..=0
so Jiayou to everyone includin myself..lol..haha..XP

2007-11-25T16:50:00.000+08:00

BORED BORED + MORE BORED
Went out yesterday..
and mom grounded me from goin out today..DAMN!

2007-11-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

updates bout yesterday..
went to Suntec with Jiaxin and Ryan..
meet Jiaxin first at JE mrt..
then after that board the train..
then talk talk talk until we reached City Hall..
then after that walked out of the mrt station..
then began walkin through Citylink..
SUDDENLY!!!
This man approached Jiaxin..
His name is Yit Han..i called him Yihan(sighs)
Then he say he is from dunno wat Artiste company..
he is the assistant of some boss..or laobanniang..Named Ivy something..
then he say his laoban interest in askin her to join the company..
and asked her to considers..
Its like we are walkin through Citylink and this surprise happens..
What a nice Christmas Surprise For Jiaxin(the star)..haha
We both stun diao lor..haha
then after that very high for dunno like half hour and began to die down..LOL
then walk and walk in suntec ..
and walk until Ryan comes..
and after that walk somemore..then everyone hungry le..eat at Long John..
nothin to see le then went to Bugis..
shopped there..bought two shirt..one black n one white..and a black polo tee..
and Ryan oso bought a shirt with the print "ROCKSTAR"
haha..
then walked somemore..
SAW YULUN..LOL.
after that he join us for a while and then went back to his family..
then we went to penisula..bought a belt..
The Ramoons..haha..although dun really noe wat the band is..
Jiaxin oso got her something like a beanie but MUCH more cuter..haha..
REally tired..then went home..

2007-11-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

Nothin much happened today..
go for tuition at noon..
and after that went jammin..
dunnno for wat,
go there for..
had another not so good day...
but at least its better then yesterday.
sighsss.

2007-11-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullaby
Sometimes I drive so fast
Just to feel the danger
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

To walk within the lines
Would make my life so boring
I want to know that
I Have been to the extreme
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me
nothing to make me feel alive

Is it enough to love?
Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.

Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful accident, turibulent, succulent
opulent permanent,
no wayI wanna taste it
Don't wanna waste it away

Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It's my lullabyIs it enough?
Is it enough?Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please

Is it enough?
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my lifeI'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
ohI'd rather be anything but ordinary please

2007-11-09T21:25:00.001+08:00

Fcuk..
damn pissed right now..
ar....!!!

KEEp on RUNNIN and RUNNIN

2007-11-08T20:22:00.000+08:00

Went to chinese garden to jog today..
Walao eh crowded sia..
INDIANS have conquered CHINESE garden..
its ok..cuz today its deepavali..
happy deepavali to tamils..
i not emo..le..haha
its just i will forget everythin happen the next day..
sometimes tats good and sometimes tats bad..
Thanks to EVERYONE for cheering up..
I still wanna look at the stars..
layin on the grass..

2007-11-06T19:44:00.000+08:00

Why everything is onli i wrong..
i m trying to ren..
but dunno for how long more...
its just i felt look at the stars..
and just think of nothing..
its like i onli play the psp for 3 min when ms june nvr come..
and ms tan saw it..
and she complained it to my mom..
my mom just got home..
and lecture me...
no one noes..
but all the things that are happenin are breakin me up..
blow away my cconfidence..
destroyin my self-esteem..
i always looked happy..
its because..
i cant hate..
that is the worst thing tat can happen to anyone..
not able to hate..
my mom think i m a problematic teen..wentishaonian..
wat can i say..
i dun wan to shout at her..
and i m goin to get conselled tmr ..
cuz my mom ask her to do tat..
wat can she to her ..
i dont noe..
i just wanted to look at the stars...
in the night sky..

2007-11-02T19:27:00.000+08:00

OMG..MY HAIR IS SCREWED!!!
Now i'm a BOTAK with a few strand of hair...
i can't even style it lah..! T.T
Have to wait dunno how many hours,days,months for my hair to grow back!!!
Sore throat is STilL there!!arH..!
And RYAN shot that STUPID RUBBER BAND AT MY EYE...
And if not for my SPETACLES..
I would have 1 eye bleeding, WALkING down the corridor...
I just REad 1 book and it SAYS
"Teens' 30 Most Embarrassing Moments"
ONE of it IS
"GETTING A REALLY BAD HAIRCUT"
AND I GOT IT!!
NoT to say anything bout yesterday!! haha

Went to Jurong east library after school to do maths..
Got two genius to help me..
Kwan boon and Lingyong..
Thanks..
Finally,i m doing homework by myself,INSTEAD Of COPYING...

SCREWED HAIR!!! =XXX
CHiNESe o-level was ok but i screwed up my oral..T.T sighsss

ACtually i dun wan cut my hair 1 lor..
ms tan said that she is not goin to mention my hair to mom before parents meeting..
But she told me i look like an Alien..
cuz my top is too high..
And the last sentence she told my mom is
"er.i think your son the hair to spiky" or something..
and my mom said
"oh,i have got the same view,i dont like the behind of his hair!"
Two hand 1 clap means sound..
and i got the screwed haircut..
sighsss

WISHES MY HAIR GROW FAST !!!
GROW BACK!!!
GROW BACK!!!

Kwan boon told me this song that will make u die..
Of course he never went to listen to it..
he said it had killed more then 100 people liao..
cuz it makes he suicide or something???

Long post... XPPPP

2007-10-29T20:22:00.000+08:00

Loves my skinnies hehe xP
shall have a change of style..
No more baggy clothes and JEANs xDDD
Fever has disappeared but the SorE throat is KILLING me!!!
Two more weeks of lessons?!!?
And mayb more lessons...
And trainin and everything..
sec 3 dun have holidays =XXX
By the way,we have to write a 600 words chinese compo every week!!WTF!?!?
SAVE ME>>SOS
DYING
ACtually i find the English workshop helpful..lol..
cuz i didnt fall asleep..haha

2007-10-27T20:39:00.003+08:00

*CAUGH* BAd SORE thRoAt..=XXXX

2007-10-24T13:23:00.000+08:00

I Totally hate this hOLiday..except for de shoppin part and the k-box-ing part..
Tons of things to do For E-learnin..
and i still got to go back To sch everyday
for 4 hours of lesson WTF..
Somemore,i have got tis damn fever..
IS TIS 3 DAYS SUPPOSE TO BE HOlIDAYS!?!?
*caugh*,*caugh*
somemore i got sore throat..
...
Tmr is sport carnival..still has to go school sia.. cuz hav lesson after tat...sian...
ArH! haven start E-lEArnin yet..
LoW FEVEr..
Guess has to listen to friendster horoscope..LOL

2007-10-23T20:40:00.001+08:00

HIGH FEVER!!!

2007-10-21T16:11:00.001+08:00

DAMN IT!!
Today is so GOD-damn SCREWeD..

2007-10-19T21:24:00.000+08:00

AFTer school today..went to play pool..
SIAn arh..next week the 3 days holiday all gone liao..
Everyday need to go back school for chinese o-level final revision..sian..
somemore..need to have the E-LEarning !?!?
Anyway... no holiday for me liao..wonder next tuesday still got trainin?
=x

2007-10-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

Mom Is SICK PraY THAT she get better soon...+)
noe how hard doin all de housework can be le..
so tired now..still have to do housework..

2007-10-17T19:05:00.000+08:00

ARHHH..
STUPID HEADACHE...
Today at school i slept for almost half-a-day..LOL
Before recess is the career management workshop..damn bored..but somewhat helpful haha =)
After school went to play basketball..
now so tired..
next week is like WOW!!! 3days of holidays..YEAH..

2007-10-16T20:28:00.000+08:00

Nothin happened much todaY EXCEPT we GOt back all of the exam paper!?!?SCREWed haha
WEnt to cut hair after trainin...IVAN N EASTER de two hairstylist weren't free..so i GOT a noob to cut for me ... sians...A bit weird...CUT mallot again wahaha...xDDD

2007-10-15T16:23:00.000+08:00

Thanks to huiwen and huiwens friend for helpin me settin up tis blog =DDDDD
AnD tmr sch starts AGAIN...